I usually try and come up with a snazzy intro to poignant posts, but I can’t seem to find one for this one.
So I’m going to jump straight in. Boom.
14th March 2014. The day my life changed forever…
I woke up at 4am that day, scared, anxious, and tired. I looked on Twitter and saw that Tom Fletcher from McFly had become a daddy to Buzz, who was born on the 13th March.
I cried. Not happy tears. But sad, longing, empty ones.
We had been trying to conceive for three long hard years. I wanted to be a mummy, more than anything. The want and need to have a baby had taken over my whole life. I was an infertile, depressed mess.
I was booked for surgery that day, to investigate my infertility with the potential of a partial or full hysterectomy.
I walked into the hospital scared and infertile.
I walked out shocked and PREGNANT.
How, I hear you ask. My surgery was abandoned after a pre-op pregnancy test came up positive.
Just a fluke I thought. Fucking body, conning me again.
Seven tests later. I was definitely pregnant.
Nope, still a cruel trick I thought.
So the surgeon took me for a scan. And there in my belly was a little bean.
Shit the bed. I really was pregnant and I had no idea.
I was 7 weeks pregnant, and our little jumping bean had a heartbeat.
So for me, the 14th March will always be my favourite most memorable day ever, even more so than the day I gave birth.