As mentioned in my post earlier this week I’m back on anti-depressants and feeling pretty pants about it.
I really want to feel well enough to not need them anymore; however I can see it is making me poorly and physically so stressed and run down.
After an epic fail yesterday where the prescription got lost I finally got the tablets and took my first one today.
So how do I feel?
- Exhausted. I think the emotions attached to completely breaking down yesterday have completely wiped me out and I feel rough today. My arms, legs and whole body feels like I have the ‘flu; I feel like I could sleep for years.
- Disappointed. I really wanted to beat this without medication.
- Hopeful. That these new tablets will agree with me and I will feel better in a few weeks.
Duloxetine according to my doctor are specifically for generalised anxiety disorder and moderate to major depression. It also apparently can help suppress appetite which will be beneficial too my eating problems and it can help pain and fatigue associated with Fibromyalgia.
I am being way too hard on myself. A few people said it yesterday and today I can kind of see why. I constantly have my expectations set too high and I need to stop.
I haven’t been to the gym in three weeks. I feel guilty and so upset but I know I don’t have the energy for it.
I need to be kind to myself. Easier said than done, I’m such a dick.
I can’t sit still; I constantly have to clean and tidy when I know full well it will never be totally clean or tidy.
I even tried to bribe the small one into a nap today so I could have one.
Yep, epic fail.
You can find more information on Duloxetine here – as with all prescription-only medicine you should only take it on the advice of a doctor or trained medical professional.
I have been warned that there might some gnarly side affects with starting this one; such as nausea and the shits which I get every time I change medication, Happy days.
So, that’s me at the moment – as always I will keep you updated and if you would like to talk about anything I’ve mentioned feel free to get in touch 🙂