Sinking

I don’t even know where to start with this; my head is a mess and I’m just completely pickled at the moment.

I had another counselling session yesterday and a particularly bad day with the small one.

I’m exhausted and I feel terrible; depression is taking over again and I feel out of control.

I had a long chat with hubs the other day and he told me how he dislikes the way I get sucked into drama and take things so personally.

Ouch.  I know it’s true but it still hurts.

This has been an issue of late on social media; I find myself getting sucked into drama and taking things way too personally; there have been moments the mouse has hovered over the ‘delete blog’ button.

Social media is great but I think it’s doing more harm than good to me at the moment.

I’m so fucking lonely.  On my days off(ha!) I’m stuck at home with no transport and an uber-feisty toddler.

I know only I can pull myself out of this but I can’t see a way out of this fetid pit of despair at the moment.

Don’t worry – I’m safe and I have no intentions of harming myself or anyone else for that matter.

I’m just really low.  No motivation, no love, no hate, no feelings at all.

I wish I could be inspirational and offer advice but I have none.

It’s 8am and I wish it was bedtime.  I don’t want to face the world.  Don’t want to adult or parent today.

 

 

 

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