I’m a mess, to be honest – A Big D Update

Wednesday 17th May 2017

I wrote last week about how depression is like a nasty friend that won’t leave you alone, called Big D.

I’ve tried to be as open and honest about my depression and how I’m feeling and of late I’ve not really written about it for a few reasons.

I’ve been having major wobbles about the direction my blog is going; and whether or not to keep the mental health part and just focus on parenting and lifestyle.  Or whether to just quit for good, to be honest. Continue reading “I’m a mess, to be honest – A Big D Update”

Beating Big D: Online Therapy

In my local area there is an organisation called Ieso Digital Health which is a self referral service for online and telephone counselling and therapy.

I have tried it in the past and found because I was feeling better or off my nut on anti-depressants it didn’t really work for me, and I’ve kind of just gone it alone.

I met with my GP last week and she suggested I try again, as it may really help if I approach with the thought of it just being a chat with someone and not expecting a cure. Continue reading “Beating Big D: Online Therapy”

A slight case of the wobbles but otherwise… I’m sweet

I am now three weeks clear of the happy pills and I’m feeling pretty good for the most part.

My motivation and true emotions seem to be coming back which is both good and bad as I cry at everything.

EVERYTHING.

I feel like the true ‘me’ is coming back and although I’m still healing and my head is still mega pickled I feel pretty good. Continue reading “A slight case of the wobbles but otherwise… I’m sweet”

Big D & Me: Going Solo

It’s currently 3am and I’m wide awake and not loving life.

I’ve been free of painkillers and all medication except Levothyroxine for twelve days.

I can feel the old me coming back and my mind is a bit of a pickle.

My aches and pains are still going but I seem to have broken the painkiller cycle and I can cope a lot better without painkillers, I think I had built up a huge tolerance and they just weren’t working as well. Continue reading “Big D & Me: Going Solo”