Being bad ass: will I love my child?

An email popped up yesterday. “Your toddler at 32 months” – I’ll be honest, I count in years and have no idea in months. Three year ago I was 24 weeks pregnant; I was depressed, scared, anxious, and a mess.

My brain – more pickled than your average gherkin

Yesterday was a bit of a weird day; we walked to the hospital for an appointment I had regarding the mystery illness and it was a beautiful sunny day that started full of positives. And then they told me I have Hypermobility and potentially another disease off the back of it and it went a […]

She’s sad, so sad.

Oh look, she’s here! She has a huge smile on her face, She’s laughing and joking; she’s fine. But she’s far from it you see, Inside she cries. Inside she’s sad, so sad.

Goodbye Happy Pills

I should probably say firstly that my opinions are my own and are based on my own experience.  You should always seek medical opinion before deciding on stopping any medication, and I don’t recommend doing what I have done.  I’m also a huge fan of happy pills(anti-depressants) and am not dissing them in any way, […]

Son, Mummy is Sorry

Dear the mancub, I wanted to write you a letter this morning, to tell you how much I love you.

Roll up & join the self-pity party

I feel like total and utter shit this morning. We had plans; I needed to take the car for an MOT and service, do some food shopping and sort the house out. Instead its 9am and I’m sat on the sofa with a large coffee on the verge of tears, feeling very sorry for myself.

Current mood: Just a little bit… shit

Do you ever have those days/weeks/months where you feel just a little bit shit? Not full on depressed; or not even sad.  But just a little bit shit. Let me explain.