I’ve been on a slippery slope for a while now and with everything going on depression wise I’ve neglected my body.
I’m not sure why I’m finding things so hard this time – I just can’t seem to find the motivation and willpower and I’m stuck in an awful mindset.
My head seems to have accepted I’m fat and doesn’t seem to care.
I’ve been trying to embrace what and who I am as part of my own self-care; even if every day I can only find one positive, I’m celebrating every little win.
But my image is one thing and it’s all very well accepting myself as I am and celebrating my curves BUT I know I’m carrying too much weight and I’m heading towards Diabetes and all sorts of weight-related problems – I’m 5ft2½ and I know my various aches and pains, PCOS, Thyroid and everything else will improve if I can be a bit leaner.
So on a bit of a whim yesterday I rejoined my local Slimming World – I think the decision was half-depression and half binge-eating-desperation but I went with it.
According to my records I last attended in January 2017 and I had joined in September 2016, and I was disappointed to discover I am 12lb heavier than my start weight a year ago.
But I loved my group and my plan is to commit to attending weekly as the mancub will be at pre-school and I can have a little bit of me time and have no excuses.
This is also my first time on plan as a vegetarian – which I thought would be really restricting but I’m fast discovering that is not the case at all.
So watch this space – I will update as I go 🙂