I don’t even think poorlier is a word but I’m going with it.
I know I’m full of doom and gloom of late but I’m feeling worse and worse by the day and I guess talking about it makes me feel better. I’d also love to chat to people who possibly feel the same or know of anything that may help.
Last night I struggled to get up the stairs, my hips, knees, ankles and toes hurt so bad, so it was a large painkiller kind of night.
I woke up feeling drunk, groggy, and stiff. Grrrr.
I said to hubbo this morning I think enough is enough and I need to ring the doctor again. The pain is getting worse and it’s not going away like it was; it used to happen maybe every other month and last a week or so and now it’s almost constant.
My doctor was great and I’ve had a lot of bloods done today. I just hope I can get answers; and it’s not the same as every other month.
Usually I see a doctor, they take bloods, and then say they need blood a month later to compare.
By the time they take the second lot of blood I feel much better and there’s no issue.
They have thrown all sorts of words around; fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, arthritis, hashimotos thyroiditus, ME, but no diagnosis has been made.
It’s 6pm and I’ve been in bed since five. I felt so tired and achey I couldn’t face cooking dinner.
Warmth seems to help but not greatly. The only painkillers that work knock me out for 12+ hours.
I’m a useless wife; I can’t lift a basket of washing, can’t cook a dinner, can’t pick a hoover up.
I’m an even more useless Mum; I can’t change a nappy and I can’t lift my own son.
I need answers and I need help now, I’m 31 and I feel 97.
I can’t even drink, it’s more I’ll pass on the Prosecco please at the moment.
Fuck my life. But I’ll try and sleep it off, and have a happier day tomorrow.