Friday 10th August 2018
Dear sodding Diary,
I’m 33 years old, a mum, a wife – yet I don’t have a bloody clue how to look after myself.
I mean obviously I know how to shower and all that – but food and drink wise I’m destroying my body and not helping myself.
Today has been a bad pain. I’ve struggled to move, walk, and do anything. Yet I’ve eaten so much shit it’s a joke and I’ve not drank any water at all.
And I wonder why I feel so bloody awful.
I’m working the next two days and I’ve taken that opportunity to make a really good go of eating better and drinking plenty of water.
I’m addicted to sugar. Addicted to carbs. I’m addicted to diet fizzy drinks.
And I feel lousy.
Now I know eating better isn’t going to cure me but it can only help, right?
I know for a fact when I cut back on sugar, refined carbs and processed shit I feel miles better.
I’m on week four of Benepali, my weekly injections for Ankylosing Spondylitis and I can feel myself gaining weight, getting bloated and feeling lousy.
I know it’s going to be hard – if I can stick to things for a couple of weeks then I should notice a difference and should know whether it’s the right thing to do.
I feel like I need to get some control back – by eating better and staying hydrated I’m fueling my chronically inflamed body the right way and giving it the best chance to heal a little.
So watch this space – fingers crossed I’ll feel better.