I feel like total and utter shit this morning.
We had plans; I needed to take the car for an MOT and service, do some food shopping and sort the house out.
Instead its 9am and I’m sat on the sofa with a large coffee on the verge of tears, feeling very sorry for myself.
I’m in so much pain. My legs and arms hurt so bad. It’s like a really deep painful ache, and its everywhere.
I had trouble sleeping and I woke up completely crippled this morning. Hubbo had to change and sort the mancub before he left for work. I’m so stiff and useless.
I visited some friends yesterday and we went for a leisurely walk. That’s all it was. Possibly three maybe four miles, if that.
I struggled and I’m feeling it now. I felt like I was walking on bare exposed bone, the same with my hands pushing the buggy.
It’s soul-destroying, I love to go for a walk every day and be active.
I’m so upset writing this – I apologise if it makes little or no sense.
I popped some mega strong painkillers half an hour ago, they have as yet had no effect.
I’m convinced the fluoxetine I started taking a few months ago is making these pains worse, but my GP says otherwise.
So, that’s me today. We are staying indoors and resting, as best as a crazy two year old will let me.
I feel so guilty and selfish – I’m happy and apparently healthy, so why this pain?