I don’t even know where to start with this; my head is a mess and I’m just completely pickled at the moment.
I had another counselling session yesterday and a particularly bad day with the small one.
I’m exhausted and I feel terrible; depression is taking over again and I feel out of control.
I had a long chat with hubs the other day and he told me how he dislikes the way I get sucked into drama and take things so personally.
Ouch. I know it’s true but it still hurts.
This has been an issue of late on social media; I find myself getting sucked into drama and taking things way too personally; there have been moments the mouse has hovered over the ‘delete blog’ button.
Social media is great but I think it’s doing more harm than good to me at the moment.
I’m so fucking lonely. On my days off(ha!) I’m stuck at home with no transport and an uber-feisty toddler.
I know only I can pull myself out of this but I can’t see a way out of this fetid pit of despair at the moment.
Don’t worry – I’m safe and I have no intentions of harming myself or anyone else for that matter.
I’m just really low. No motivation, no love, no hate, no feelings at all.
I wish I could be inspirational and offer advice but I have none.
It’s 8am and I wish it was bedtime. I don’t want to face the world. Don’t want to adult or parent today.
