Thursday Thought: Am I a good parent?

I’m still getting used to Twitter, I’m fairly new to it, and I’ll admit I love it, I must have lived in some sort of Twitter-shunning cave for the last few years.

This morning I’ve seen quite a few #thursdaythought posts and there is all sorts from all sorts of people.

This got me thinking about my life, who I am what I am, and all sorts of related deep shit.

Thinking about what I am, first and foremost?

A parent.  A mum.  That’s what I am.

No, it isn’t who I am in the physical or emotional sense, it doesn’t define me, but it’s my main job and my life.  That little smelly fartbox is the love of my life and he needs me for everything.

Simply put, being a parent is simple.  Keep your child happy, healthy and loved. Boom. 

Reality? It’s very fucking hard.

Those days where you feel like shit on a stick and you hurt so much you can’t move?

Tough.  You cook, clean, play trains and generally wing it whilst pondering how bad you actually feel.

Those days where you dress your child in their smartest bestest outfit, and yourself too?

Poo explosion.  Shit of mass destruction.  Your clothes and theres are covered.

At the moment we are right slap bang in the Terrible Twos, aka ACTUAL LIVING HELL.

Don’t get me wrong, when the kid is asleep or sweet for two minutes and I go all soppy and doe-eyed and forget how awful he can be, but holy fanny flaps he is vile at the moment.

We have a dividing wall between the kitchen and front room, and this morning he just keeps banging it.  It’s like Chinese torture.  How I haven’t lost my shit yet I don’t know.

He just will not listen, everything is a tantrum or a no.

What’s strange is, when he misbehaves, or plays up, it hurts my heart.  It’s my fault, I’m a terrible parent for making him that way.

And that’s parenthood.  You constantly feel like despite giving your best you haven’t done enough.  Doesn’t matter what you do, it’s never enough.

It’s hard to remember that these little people we create are simply moulded by us, and we can’t be responsible for everything they do, they grow and learn all the time and have their own personalities built in.

Am I a good parent? Who knows.
But I rock the SHIT out of being the best parent I can be.

Diary of an imperfect mum

22 thoughts on “Thursday Thought: Am I a good parent?

  1. I love that last line, I agree we rock it at doing our best! Nothing wrong with a kid throwing a tantrum they are learning and we have every right to be driven mad by it, we are human #stayclassymama

  2. Yes!!!! That mom guilt can kick in something fierce for me when things go wrong for my kid. (who’s now banging on the wall, but different things that are annoying). Finally decided to dive into Twitter this summer and I’m like…whoa…I need a seatbelt. And a glass of wine after. Haha. LOVE your post =) #ablogginggoodtime

  3. So much to love about this! Love the idea of #thursdaythought – may have to join you but then I’m such a bloody over thinker I may regret writing it – or my readers may regret me writing it! I’m new to your blog – glad I found it – loved it! Off to follow xx #ablogginggoodtime

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